Tricks of Fate

Sadyang mapaglaro ang tadhana!!!

That’s what has been happening to me all week now!

Sunday. Realized that I really had to let go of Ahia. Got tremendously hurt. Sank into depression.

Monday. Ahia told me something I couldn’t believe; let alone, accept. Was in tears all night long.

Tuesday. Ahia and I opened up to each other. Laid out all our cards. Cried for almost the entire time we talked. Mutual decision to let go. Bid each other goodbye. Was surprisingly okay about it.

Wednesday. Decided to stay home and rest. Got up early since mom found out about my white lie. She told my dad about it. All hopes for being okay went straight to the pits. Other friends got involved. Everyone’s disappointed in me. Felt numb about it. Anger crept into my heart.

Thursday. Stayed at home again all day. Harshly told Ahia to stop bugging me. Was okay with it at first. Got myself into too much thinking. Started missing Ahia. Realized it wasn’t as easy as I thought it was. Fell down in the dumps again.

Friday. Had to go to meet accountant. Went to office after. Waited for friends outside office to eat out for lunch. Car stopped in front of me. Thought it was a kidnapper. Guy came down. It was Ahia! Was on his way to work. He won’t leave me to wait alone. Manager saw us outside with a sneer on her face. Hurried inside Ahia’s car and met friends in the restaurant instead.

See what I mean? How fate could play tricks? Damn! I was already okay. Everything was already okay. Then, fate had to let us meet again... Without wanting us to!

How can fate be so cruel? What does it want to imply? I’m really tired already. I’m okay with letting go. I’ve somehow started to move on. But fate keeps pulling me back to where I began! Sheesh! What does it want from me? What does it want me to do?!

Argh! I’m really gonna go crazy if this cycle continues…!